SAFE
LIMITED EDITION. Only 20 prints printed
Fine art giclée print on 310msg cotton rag paper with a matt finish
41 x 51 cm (16" x 20")
Each print comes with a certificate of authenticity and lots of love
This painting is about freedom. It was born from a desire to reconnect to creative / sexual / life force energy. I’d been in a period of high stress, living in survival mode, feeling numb, and I longed to come alive again. I wanted to feel vitality and radiance pulsing through me like never before. This desire took me on a deeper journey than I expected.
Soon I realised that what I’d been missing was safety. I didn’t feel safe in a stable way, with that vital / sexual / creative energy flowing through me. It wasn’t as simple as just turning it on. It took a lot of time and work to build that safety.
I had to practise energetic boundaries. I gave myself safety so that I could feel my emotions. I had to resurrect my anger from where it had been shoved down within me, and let it protect me.
I discovered that I needed my inner masculine, to face the hardness of the world for me. I resurrected him from where I’d lost faith in him and discarded him, and let him do his job of keeping me safe, secure and protected.
I had to practise how to remain connected to myself and my truth in relation to external men. I had to free myself from the patriarchal structures within me. The structures that tried to tell me my sexuality, my body, my energy, my time, my radiance, was for men. I discovered that my beauty, my pleasure, and my essence has nothing to do with men. I freed myself of the lies and illusions that I needed men, in the ways I thought I did. (We still need you though! ) Freedom from the patriarchal ideas that I should follow mens lead over my own. What a fucking relief !!
Many times I wanted to give up. I was so overcome with rage, grief and despair that myself and so many women have not felt safe. Completely enraged at the rape, abuse, disrespect, and violence towards women that still goes on. Like a plague on humanity. Accepting the reality of women being objectified was so hard, I just wanted to stay living in my dream world.
I wanted to stop painting it and hide. As so many women also hide. To keep the vital energy turned off, to stay protected from becoming prey. But I built the safety I needed, slowly but surely, through trial and error. Because to live a life without sexual / creative / life force energy flowing through me and overflowing out, is to be the living dead, which I refuse to be.
And what a relief to come out the other side, reborn into love again, discovering that I don’t have to turn off and withhold radiance, expression, beauty, sexuality, creativity; but just protect it.
So actually what looks like a very feminine painting, turned out to be mostly about my relationship with masculine energy. They are inseparable after all, one can’t exist without the other.
Let each of us harmonise our inner masculine and feminine, and let the world become safe, peaceful and beautiful. Let our inner feminine feel safe. Let women be safe.
